Wandering Weirdo

I’m a loner.

I have no wife, no girlfriend and very few friends, who mostly live kind of far away from me. There are a couple of reasons for this. For one, I am coarse, intense, bossy, intimidating, opinionated, bold, outspoken, without tact, a Christian and I’m just rather unpleasant to be around other than in small doses. The other reason I’m a loner is because I don’t really mind it. I find it to be rather cozy and I enjoy my freedom. I keep myself very good company. I enjoy reflective time spent alone. I rarely get lonely, but sometimes I do and it’s very real, but I push on through. And to think, I’ve had beautiful girlfriends (never married) and lots of so-called friends throughout the years. My place was the place that everyone gathered at and hung out. My back porch always had a dozen people on it drinking beer, playing music, playing guitar, talking politics, playing games and just hanging out having fun. I know how to make myself likeable, which is important in business and sales especially. I can charm people quite easily. People often find me very interesting too, but still, I find myself at a time in life where I am alone almost all the time, except for when I visit my folks who live nearby.

So what do I like to do with all my alone time? One thing I like to do is travel about 2 hours to my favorite seacoast town in New Hampshire and just take it all in. It’s the town of Portsmouth and it’s wonderful. It has so much charm and such a rich history going all the way back to colonial America. It’s the quintessential New England town. It’s funny because it’s a rather urban place, quite hustling and bustling. I usually steer clear of those kinds of places and only found myself here by happenstance one day, when to my surprise I started to realize that I really liked this town. The market square is so beautiful and there isn’t any litter on the ground anywhere. You have to walk 3 blocks just to see a single cigarette butt on the ground. The buildings downtown are mostly brick and they are very old, but they’re kept up so perfectly. There are many shops up and down the streets with showcase windows done up professionally, such that each of them looks like a picture perfect image that belongs on a magazine. Just outside of the downtown area is another area called Strawberry Banke and it has old houses going back to the 1600s. The dates are on plaques on the houses. 1743, 1722, 1643 and so on. The streets are so narrow in that part of town that two cars can’t pass by one another. All of the houses are right up on the street too, with no front yards. Still, everybody has flower pots and other decorative items out front and everything looks picture perfect.

The Piscataqua river runs right into the sea along the edge of Portsmouth and it makes for a gorgeous scene. The tug boats dock right there on the side of the road in the river.

I’ve spent many a day driving to this place just to park my car and lazily stroll around town, looking around, thinking, reflecting, observing, the outsider looking in. There are more great places to eat in this town than any other place I’ve ever been to. Did I mention that the people are really nice here? They are very friendly, especially for New England where it must be admitted that most people are rather standoffish. There is music all around. There are bands playing in pubs all over the city all night long and people criss crossing the street everywhere you go. Lots of beautiful girls too. There are some great book stores in this town as well. It reads like a fairy tale and that’s just what it’s like here.

One thing I love to do is take a nice 5 mile walk around the town. Actually, I walk outside of the downtown area and then circle around it on the back roads. Some of them are main roads too but still, I’m away from the hustle and bustle and among the houses that look like all the houses you see in any old New England town. And I just walk. When I’m walking all kinds of interesting thoughts come to me. Sometimes I make lots of time to pray. Other times I happen to notice what the people in these homes are watching on TV. These days everyone has their TV up on their wall, except me, I don’t have a TV. Anyhow, because the TVs are up on the wall (that’s where flat-screen TVs go) you can see what people are watching when you walk by the house. Many people watch the cable news channels. They folks are cozy and comfortable in their living rooms, husband with wife, kicked back on the couch like any other normal American, clicker in hand, watching the tube.

But not me.

No. I am in a strange town 120 miles away from home on a work night, walking on the sidewalk at 11:00 PM, wandering, wandering, wandering aimlessly, relishing the wee bit of melancholy that accompanies by often pensive mood. I am completely marinated in poignancy. At once I am grateful to God to be alive and that he has allowed me to stop and smell the roses in ways that the normal people can’t or don’t do, but, I also realize that I am cast out into the outer darkness of society, and that I am alone. I wonder to myself, “What am I doing out here?”. One time the police talked to me because they saw me in this park at night looking suspicious. I just had to take a leak really badly so I went behind the bushes in the park. On my way out of the park back to the road, I stopped to admire the stillness of the night and to look up at the stars. I decided to take a rest by sitting on top of one of the picnic tables and look at my phone. Then, when I left the park, the cops came up and stopped me walking in the road, wanting to know what I was doing peeking in people’s windows and prowling around! I was shocked. I told them what I was doing, but left out the park about taking a leak in the park, lest they bust me for something like indecent expose or some other trumped up charge. They couldn’t accept that I was just taking a walk, alone, at that time of night, when I lived 120 miles away. They thought it was too weird to be true. “So you’re just up here, 120 miles from home with your car parked downtown, and you’re way out here, just walking around down the street – just because? I’m not buying it!”. That’s what the cop said to me, but what could I say? Is it a crime to be a wandering weirdo?

For a while I stopped going to my favorite town as I soured on it after this incident, but after a year or so I went back. Oh, I had been back before a year. In fact I was back the next week, but I just didn’t take my favorite long walk around the town. That is, outside the perimeter of the downtown area. You see, once you leave the downtown area where all the action is, it gets very quiet. Downtown is noisy, but it’s a nice noisy. Lots of life. Lots of action. Lots of fun. But as soon as you get on your way up the road, it because still and quiet, like a rural country town. You can hear a pin drop. You can still hear the dull roar of the highway traffic way off in the distance, and in one part of the walk you actually cross over a bridge that goes over the highway, so you hear the cars loud and clear at that point, but it’s different than the clanging and banging of the downtown area. I thoroughly enjoy doing this. This is my walk. So many thoughts and feelings come to mind that otherwise don’t seem to happen to me. It’s as though I’m lost and looking for something, but I don’t know what. And sometimes I find it, but I still don’t know what it is.

On my peaceful walks I find myself thinking about so many different kinds of things that I couldn’t possibly mention them all, but I do find myself thinking about when I was a kid. I remember being trapped in school, wishing I was anywhere but there, dreaming of an escape. I remember learning about Edgar Allan Poe and other American writers in middle school and high school and some of their stories vaguely cross my mind, as they were set in New England, some of them. I remember sitting in that classroom wondering what life had in store for me, wondering how I would ever get my act together and how I would ever really function in the real world like a normal adult, someday. In between those day dreams in school, I realized that I actually liked these old writers. Without knowing it, I bonded with them, if that’s at all possible, over the one thing we had in common: escapism. The authors escaped by writing their stories and creating alternate realities to hide themselves in. I escaped by reading a little bit of them and letting my imagination carry me away. Fast forward 30 years and here I am, wandering around a strange town that I almost never visited as a kid, walking through the streets, observing the normal folks who have to get up and work in the morning, as I stroll down their streets in their town, putting one foot in front of the other, half in the present and half back in school, dreaming of my escape, along with Poe.

Somehow, I find the whole experience to be very enriching. I feel as though some great truth about life is being revealed to me, but it’s in a foreign language of sorts. I know something profound has enveloped me, but I can hardly understand what it is, yet I know it’s there and I know it’s real. My lonesome wandering is very rewarding. I wouldn’t trade it for the world.


The Dangers of Christian Dogma

What is Christian dogma?

Answer: Christian dogma is a set of beliefs widely held by Christians and taught by Christian authority figures that are assumed to be true and therefore almost never questioned. These beliefs may or may not be true

Examples of Christian Dogma

  1.   The first example is the dogma of the trinity. Most Christians think that the trinity is true, but nowhere in the bible does the word trinity appear. This concept of the trinity was invented by early Church Fathers but is not explicitly laid out in the bible.
  2.  The second Christian dogma is that Jesus is God. It does that Jesus is God in the bible and in fact it seems to show the opposite. Jesus never claimed to be God. Jesus spoke to God. Jesus asked God on the cross “why have you forsaken me?” and that is not something you ask yourself.
  3. Christians can sin even after they are born again of God. 1 John 3:9 makes it perfectly clear that if you are born of God that you cannot sin, and that if you sin you are of your father the Devil. Yet, Christians have been indoctrinated into the dogmatic belief that we can sin, even if we are born of God. Nowhere in the bible does it say that if you are born of God that you can still sin.
  4. The bible is inerrant. This is a big one. Many Christians have faith in the bible but the bible does not say to have faith in anything but God. The bible is a collection of writings gathered up from throughout history. The New Testament was assembled and canonized in the 3rd and 4th centuries. People went around and gathered the writings of various religious leaders and writers, put them all together and then had a council go over them all to decide which seemed genuine and which seemed fake. Why should we have faith in these people that they know what is God’s word and what is not?
These are four of the biggest examples of Christian dogma. They are beliefs that are popular in the church and taken as inarguable truth but there are no reasons to believe than any of these dogmatic tenets are in fact true.  Christians will twist themselves into human pretzels and put forth the most convoluted, ad hoc explanations as to why we should believe these dogmas to be true.  I say that the only reason people believes these dogmas to be true is because they heard that they were true from other Christians, and then when they read the bible it seemed true to them.

In other words, if no one had taught these people about the idea of the trinity, the idea that you can be born of God and sin, the idea that the bible is inerrant, the idea that Jesus is God, then you wouldn’t think these things on your own. You wouldn’t come to those conclusions based on your own bible reading.

What is Dogma?

Dogma is the belief that a specific tenet laid down by authority is true. Dogma can be objectively true but it may not be. People blindly accept dogmas and oftentimes defend dogma with all their might. This is also true for Christians.  There are a number of tenets that Christians believe are true and if asked about them, they become extremely defensive. They confuse their dogma with objective Christian truth, which, admittedly, are not always mutually exclusive. However, there are a number of beliefs that most Christians hold that aren’t supported by the bible. The Christian Church has produced these dogmas and they are taught to the people, the congregations, as though it is scriptural truth and can’t be argued. Even just to be asked to think critically about these dogmas causes most Christians to recoil in fear and abhorrence.  To ask a Christian to even *think* that a particular dogma they hold *may* not be true is almost like asking them to reject the salvation made possible by Jesus.

The Dangers of Christian Dogma

The danger of Christian dogma is that some of the tenets that Christians believe in may not be true. If that is the case then these Christians are believing falsehood and lies. They are deceived and can’t see the whole truth. This may cause one to live wrong, to think wrong, to have the wrong expectations, to think that evil is good, to think that it’s okay to sin and to fill one’s mind full of deceptions all the while having a mind of good intentions. Christian dogma will put obstacles in the way of receiving God’s wisdom.

Reflections on Wisdom, Pride, Insight, Discipline and Deceit

Many people wonder from time to time what the difference is between knowledge, understanding and wisdom. I am going to explain my thoughts on this and then I’m going to talk about how they are related to discipline, pride and the phenomenon of enlightenment.

Knowledge can be thought of as all the facts that one can know. Knowledge is related to facts, information and data.

Understanding is the ability to determine meaning from the facts, information and data.

Wisdom is knowing what to do next based on your understanding and knowledge.

Some people can have lots of knowledge about many things and little understanding. They can know lots of historical facts, scientific facts, facts about business and economy and other things about life, but they leave it there. When it comes time to reason about the facts and discern truth, they come up short. Lots of facts and very little understanding.

Others have few facts but much understanding. Someone may not be well versed in a lot of areas, but the few things they do know, the know well and can derive deep meaning from very little data, facts and information. I can think of some people that know practically every verse in the bible and seem to have them all memorized. They can tell you what they’ve learned about some of the verses because they remember what their pastors and ministers have taught them, but they don’t actually have deep understanding. On the other hand, I know people that barely know bible verses and never memorize them, yet they reflect for years on a single verse and come to understand and realize all of the implications that it entails. They have great understanding but little knowledge.

Some may have great knowledge and great understanding but fail to make the right decisions and don’t seem to know what steps to take themselves. These people lack wisdom. In order to have wisdom, we need to know what to do next based on our understanding of the knowledge we have. What we should do is a part of wisdom. Great leaders need wisdom if they are to know what they should do next. Solomon prayed for wisdom because he had to lead the Israelites and wasn’t confident that he had what it took to lead them confidently.

Now consider this: have you ever acted against your own best judgment?

Everyone I’ve asked this question has answered in the affirmative. They all say, “Yes, I’ve acted against my own best judgment”. But we have to wonder why that is. If our best judgment is based on wisdom, then why do we prevent wisdom from obtaining in our lives? What is this enemy of wisdom?

Think about when you decide what is best for you. Now think of when you’ve knowingly acted against your own best judgment. At some point we begin a narrative in our minds that begins to deceive us, but what does that mean? What does it mean to deceive ourselves? It seems as though when we decide that x is in our best interest, it is our sense of identity, “I”, “Me” that attaches itself to this judgment. It is the real person inside us; our very identity. We decide with our very person, our identity, that we will or will not do x according to our best judgment. This gets filed away in our consciousness as a part of who we are.

Then, when we act against our own best judgment and do the opposite of x, we don’t just do it without rationalizing and thinking. First, we recall that we’ve already decided that x is the right thing to do, but then we begin a reasoning process, a process of rationalization, that convinces us to act against our own best judgment. Notice, it is our identity, our person, the “me”, the “I” that sits passively and listens to this other voice, the voice that rationalizes and convinces and deceives, and then we are deceived by this other voice into acting against our own best judgment. The other voice never feels deceived itself or manipulated itself and, notice, that we don’t identify with this other voice.

We identify with ourselves and feel as though this other voice, this other narrative is like a different person or entity that is familiar to us and deceives us. This is an important point to remember. Our minds work in mysterious ways and we have different minds operating at once. We have the identity mind which is our sense of being and knowing who we are. It’s our self identity. Then we have a part of the mind that can perform calculations and reasoning. This seems separate from our identity-mind and the other-voice mind that rationalizes us away from our own best judgments. There also seems to be a mind that identifies itself with feelings and emotions while yet another mind identifies itself with logic and reason.

How is it that we are one person and yet we have these different minds working in us at all times?

We also have a thought-mind, which is the part of the mind that just passively receives thoughts. For instance, if I tell you right now to never, ever think about a striped elephant sitting in your kitchen, there is nothing you can do to *not* think about this. Right now you are imagining a striped elephant in your kitchen, but I put this thought in your mind, not you. No one knows how the phenomena of consciousness works and where thoughts really come from but it seems as though they don’t always come from us. Thoughts seem to pop up in our minds whether we like them or not. There are many ugly thoughts that many of us would rather not think about, yet there they are.

One thing I’ve learned is I am not my thoughts, and you are not your thoughts. Most people think they are their thoughts and they own their thoughts. This is not true. Let’s get back to acting against our own best judgment and how it relates to wisdom.

I want you to notice that without discipline we can’t put wisdom in motion. We can’t put our valuable wisdom to good use unless we have discipline. Discipline is the act of doing what needs to be done now. Mike Tyson once said that discipline is, “Doing what you hate like you love it” and he’s not far from the truth. Discipline is doing what needs to be done when it needs to be done and not later. Discipline is the last thing that needs to be put in gear to put your wisdom to work for you.

When we act against our own best judgment, we fail to act as we should and therefore we lack discipline. What could cause this?

We operate on logic and feelings. Logic seems to tell us where our best judgment should be and feelings tend to cater to our egos. Whenever we act against our own best judgment and toss our discipline aside, it seems to be in service of our feelings and emotions and at the expense of our logic. We go back to that girlfriend or boyfriend or spouse that cheated on us or treats us wrong. We decide to get drunk again even though we’ve decided to never do that again. We decide that right now is a good time to smoke a cigarette even though we’ve decided it was never a good thing to do ever again. We decide to go to the fridge for one more piece of pie even though we are gaining weight and our best judgment tells us to diet.

When people commit suicide, it’s always because they are listening to their feelings. It’s never our logical minds that say, “kill yourself and end the misery”. It’s always the feelings side of the mind, the emotional side. We can see from this that the emotional/feelings side of the mind is not our friend at all. If you let it, it will kill you with suicide, diabetes and heart disease, cholesterol, alcoholism, lung cancer from smoking, depression, stress, high blood pressure and so on. All of the bad things we do in life come from ideas we get from feelings and emotions.

Our feelings and emotions give voice to our deceiving mind. These thoughts are not our own yet many people identify, wrongly, with these feelings and emotions and don’t realize that, although these feelings exist, they are not *who they are*.  If you are a Christian you can think of these deceiving thoughts as the devil himself. We’ve seen this in old cartoons where we see someone with a little angel on their left shoulder and a little devil on their right. They two little beings talk to the person and represent the good and evil in their minds.

When we put ourselves above God, we put our cravings first and our wants and desires first, ahead of Him. Somewhere deep down inside, our pride tells us to feed ourselves, fulfill our greedy desires and satisfy our feelings instead of doing what God wants. We don’t come to this decision consciously (at least not most of us), but we come to it nonetheless. We identify with our pride, like Satan did, instead of identifying with God, and they we seek to serve ourselves; our pride, by being slaves to our feelings, emotions, appetites and passions. This all happens under the radar and we are not aware that this transformation is happening the way it actually happens until one day you wake up and realize that you are not who you thought you were.

When we identify with our pride, we identify with our father the devil; Satan. We make him our father instead of our Father God. We become separated from God when we make ourselves god in his place. Hardly anyone realizes that we make ourselves gods and worship ourselves, yet this is exactly what we do.

So how do we end up acting against our own best judgment? How do we render our wisdom useless like this? We do it by identifying with our pride and putting pride first. The deceiving voice that rationalizes against our own best judgment is pride talking. Pride is a spirit like anger and hate and it lives in us. Pride is not a part of our person. It is not of God and neither is anger, resentment and hate. Anger, resentment and hate are like members in Pride’s gang, if you will. Pride brings with it it’s own high ranking officers of hate, anger and resentment. The only reason these feelings exist is to serve and defend pride. All negative emotions are related to pride, because once pride becomes our god, it can never be offended without being defended.

It’s our pride, and our identifying with our pride, that motivates us to marinate in our feelings and passions, which causes us to rationalize and reason such that we act against our own best judgment. Therefore it is pride that is the enemy of wisdom. Pride is the language of foolishness, evil and death. Wisdom will bring peace while pride brings grief and misery.

Remember that pride is a spirit that makes a home in us, causing us to think that the pride is us, a part of who we are. Pride, anger, hate, resentment – all of these are not of God but are of the devil and if you serve pride then you hear only the voice of your father the devil. Those thoughts that you use to rationalize against your own best interest are not your own. It is the voice of Satan in your mind revealing itself to you but he causes you to think it’s just you. Remember, when acting against your own best judgment, the part of your mind that feels deceived is you and the other part (the deceiving part) does not feel like you. That part of your mind never feels deceived by the first part, the logical part, the part that decides in your best judgment.

How to become wise and enlightened.

You need to remove the pride from your mind, from your state of being and then you can receive wisdom from God. God is the truth and God is love. Pride acts like a shield from the truth and a shield from love. There is no love in pride except love of self and pride covers up your whole mind with itself preventing God from revealing His truth and love to you.

God doesn’t speak like a narrative in one’s mind. God reveals things with no words. If you have a chattering mind telling you things, even good things, it’s not God. God reveals.

God gives us wisdom and understanding as He is the truth. God is all truth. There is no knowledge without truth. We can’t know something that is false. We can know that a statement is false, but that is truth. Knowledge needs to be true. Remember that knowledge is facts, data and information and all of that “just is”. Facts represent reality. God reveals knowledge, understanding and wisdom. Wisdom is Satan’s enemy because he knows that if you have it, you will reject him. Satan is wise too, but he uses wisdom for his own needs, which is ultimately unwise in God’s world.

We need to learn where our pride resides in our minds. We need to learn to recognize and be aware of when our pride is talking to us in our minds. We need to renew our minds and become aware of who we really are what we really aren’t. For instance, we need to learn that we are not our thoughts or feelings. We need to learn that we are not our pride. Becoming aware is the first step.

The very fact that you are looking to become aware of such things may be a gift from God in itself. It may be that he put this desire in your heart to understand and receive wisdom. God may have put it in you to *seek* His truth, understanding and wisdom and receive enlightenment.

Once we become aware of the pride in us and how much of it we have in us, we need to avoid trying to fight it. Instead, we just need to be aware of it and realize that we are not our thoughts. Then, when pride starts putting thoughts in our minds, we just need to watch them like a movie and not identify with them. Don’t fight them. Don’t try to get rid of them. Don’t judge yourself for them. Just let them happen but be aware. This will help you separate the real you from your thought world. The thought world is not you even though it seems like a part of you after many years of living in your thoughts. Get to know the real you away from the thoughts. Get to “know thyself”.

The bible tells us in 2 Corinthians 13:5 to examine ourselves: “Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith,…”

“Let us examine and probe our ways, And let us return to the LORD” Lamentations 3:40

“Now therefore, thus says the LORD of hosts, “Consider your ways! “You have sown much, but harvest little; you eat, but there is not enough to be satisfied; you drink, but there is not enough to become drunk; you put on clothing, but no one is warm enough; and he who earns, earns wages to put into a purse with holes.” Thus says the LORD of hosts, “Consider your ways!” Haggai 1:5-7

“Therefore whoever eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner, shall be guilty of the body and the blood of the Lord. But a man must examine himself, and in so doing he is to eat of the bread and drink of the cup.” 1 Corinthians 11:27-28

God wants us to examine ourselves so that we can know thyself. This implies that if we don’t examine ourselves we can be infected with pride and sin and not even be aware of it. We need to be aware of the pride in us as it is the locus of our sinful nature. We sin when we turn away from God. It is only after that that we do things like get angry, get drunk, smoke marijuana, cigarettes, have sex out of wedlock, gossip, have resentment, have hate, covet and other things. These things aren’t really the sin. The sin already happened if you do these things. The sin is having the spirit of pride, anger, hate and resentment in your heart instead of God’s spirit. The sin is that you’ve turned away from God and live in your thoughts, which are not your but the devil’s. The sin is that you have put another god before the real God.

When you are in this fallen state of being you are apart from God and cannot be right. You can’t have the peace that God can give you. You can’t have the love and the wisdom of God. You can’t be enlightened and will wander in darkness, ignorance and evil. As soon as you separate from God, he gives you over to a reprobate mind. The reprobate mind is why you lie, cheat, steal, hate, get angry, fornicate, abuse drugs and alcohol. The solution is to be aware of the spirit of pride in your mind and realize that it’s not you.

The more you do this, the more you will get to *know thyself* and this is what God wants us to do. God doesn’t want you to think about all the things you desire and all the things you fear. God wants you to consider your ways and examine yourself all the time. When you do that, you will become aware of how Satan works in your life. You will be able to hear his voice and reject what he says, because he lies. You will be able to uncover the real you once again and return to the Father in heaven. When you start to do this, you will learn to separate yourself from the thoughts in your head and not identify with them. You will not identify with your feelings and emotions. You will not identify with the world.

Instead of puffing yourself up with bible verses and intellectual vanity, you will learn to *be still and know God*.  Psalms tell us, “Be still, and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10.

When you separate yourself from pride and your feelings and thoughts, and you separate yourself from your intellectual vanity, you will be like an empty slate ready to receive God’s wisdom and truth. But if your pride is still there, when God’s wisdom comes, the pride will wait until a better time and then it will begin talking to you, causing you to act against your own best judgment once again.

Acting against your own best judgment is like not having any wisdom at all in the first place. You may as well have the most uninformed, ignorant and evil person in the world. Just imagine if you realize that the flame is hot, yet every day you grab the flame and burn yourself severely. Does it matter that you know better? Not at all. You may as well be so stupid that you don’t learn that the flame is hot and will burn you. So it is with all wisdom that you fail to put into motion by using discipline.

The devil can become a reflexive habit. You may feel newly enlightened but still lack discipline. That is, you may not have the same evil, deceiving narrative, rationalizing acting against your best judgment, working in your mind anymore, but when it comes time to act right, you just let it go at the last moment. You have no discipline. What’s going on here is that you actually do still have the deceiving narrative in your mind, but it plays out in a flash and you can’t even follow it. Still, in a flash, you act against your own best judgment and toss your wisdom in the trash. This can be a habit. To get rid of this habit you need to be aware of it and never take your eye off of it.

Be aware of where the devil hides in your thinking and God will come and do the rest.

Look to be still in the mind and understand who you are and what you are not. Learn about pride. Pride exists in obvious spots in your mind, but it also exists in spots that you would never recognize as being of pride. It fools all of us, including the people that are smarter than we are and closer to God than we are. It fools us all, and it’s fooling you right now.

Once you’ve learned who you are and separated yourself from your pride (actually, God separates you from the pride), then you will be able to receive what God reveals to those who seek. You won’t be able to crunch your way to wisdom by virtue of how smart you are. You need to have this kind of truth revealed to you.

Enlightenment will follow after you’ve examined yourself and gotten to know yourself, as God wants. This takes time each day. You need to make some quiet time, almost like prayer, but you don’t pray. You just sit still and watch your thoughts like a movie, slowly separating yourself from them while learning how to be aware of yourself and the sin that is pride. As soon as you leave this quiet, reflective state of mind, Satan will catch right up with you and start talking again. It will sound like your regular thoughts going through your mind in your own voice. Be aware.

Make more time to reflect on how these thoughts attack your spirit. Then, when they come again, you’ll be expecting them and the whole experience starts to change. When you’ve come to a point where you are always aware of where your pride is, and you’ve realized that you are not your thoughts, God will start to reveal wisdom and truth to you. But be careful, if you let your guard down for a second, the Pride will come back and devour your wisdom, leaving you a fool.

If you think about it, you’ll realize that the only thing of value in life is life itself and life comes from God. If you want everlasting life and not death, you need to pay attention to what God is saying, what God wants. Wisdom, knowledge and truth are God’s and truth is life. God is truth and God is love, therefore the truth is love and love is the truth and all are God. When we discard the truth in favor of satisfying our pride and passions, we discard the only thing of real value in the universe and exchange for death and destruction.

Think about that.